10
April

Phoebe Hart – Orchids: my intersex adventure

Phoebe Hart is a documentary filmmaker. Orchids: My Intersex Adventure presents her story of self-discovery. Thank you so much for being here, Phoebe. Would you tell us a little about yourself?

I’m Phoebe Hart.  I am a documentary filmmaker and CAIS woman based in Brisbane Australia

How and when were you told your diagnosis?

My mother told me I didn’t have a womb and couldn’t menstruate or get pregnant when I was about 11.  She then filled in all the gaps when I was about 17 and I’ve been researching it ever since!

Can you explain a little about your condition?

CAIS is a congenital condition whereby I have 46XY chromosomes and testes but androgens such as testosterone have no effect on my body so I developed as feminine in the uterus.

What do you like the most and the least about having a difference of sexual development?

I don’t like being different.  But, at the same time, it’s pretty cool (being different).

Making a movie is a pretty bold move. How has the publicity affected you and your family?

The movie I made – Orchids: My Intersex Adventure – was therapeutic but in the way that shock therapy is therapeutic.  It was something that created waves but in the end has helped my family come together.  It was something I had to get off my chest and, not really by choice, I had to drag everyone I love along with me. Otherwise, I was surprised how few people recognized me after it was broadcast in Australia!! (Phew!)

How has your condition affected your relationships?

Not really.  I’m married now and, after quite some years of marriage, my husband did grieve not having the opportunity to have his own biological children.  But you never know what life has planned and he may get his wish yet.

Has it affected your religious views? How have Christians treated you?

I was raised to be a leftwing atheist.  If anything, nowadays I have an Eastern religious perspective along the lines of Buddhism. I have some views about intersex and spirituality along the lines of “two spirit” beings.  However, I’ve never had any bad reactions from other religions including Christianity.  In fact, the church-going people I tell about my CAIS generally congratulate me on my courage, and then tell me about the godly virtues of adoption, etc.  It might be easier for religious people to accept AIS as it’s “god’s choice” and part of the glory of his/her creation rather than an individual wandering off the righteous path.

Have you ever thought about who you might have been without your condition?

I would be a boy, yes.  I would have probably really loved that.  But, it’s my destiny to live in this body, and perhaps my kharma – what I needed to learn in this lifetime.

Is there something you’d like to share that might surprise people?

My movie is going to show on the TV in America – on Showtime.

What’s the one thing you’d most like people to know about you?

I’m a nice person, but I’m not perfect.  Far from it.  However, I believe there’s a power to telling our stories and that should be celebrated.

Thanks for sharing. More information on the film may be found the website or on Facebook

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28
March

Proofing your DIY book cover

Creating the files

In Creating a DIY book cover with GIMP, I built the file for a book cover for Confessions of a Teenage Hermaphrodite. Before sending it off to the printer, I wanted to make sure it was perfect. It wasn’t.

Doing a poster proof

The file I send my printer is dimensioned 15 inches by 12 inches. A Google Maps search led me to a suburban Atlanta printer who charges $1 for quantity one 14×11 prints from digital.

My cover is only 12.8 inches by 9.25 inches. So I made a copy of my file, trimmed it down to 14×11, and centered the cover on a white background. The fancy color copiers are actually similar to the POD presses.

On the monitor the cover looked great, even when inspecting it close-up. However, when I got my proofs back, some flaws were evident.

  1. I had swapped out the eyes in the photo. The lower lids didn’t look right.
  2. At full size, the drop shadows didn’t look right.
  3. The contrast was insufficient.
  4. The photo was blurry.
Changing the text

Although I liked mixing fonts and font colors on the cover, the results, when printed and viewed actual size, weren’t what I expected. After trying various colors and modifying the background several times, I gave up and moved on.

When I started designing my cover, I was going to use a font that reminded me of Celtic runes. So, I started playing with it again. To overcome the issues with color and drop shadow, I eliminated both and went with a simpler layout.

Kern your title

One of the secrets that Cathi Stevenson lists in her Ten Secrets of Professional Book Cover Designers is kerning. Simply put, it’s adjusting the spacing between characters. I’ve marked below where I need to reduce the spacing.

To change the spacing on ‘of a Teenage’, I duplicated the layer three times and removed the excess characters. So my text layers had ‘of”, ‘a’, ‘T’, and ‘eenage.’ The yellow box in the photo indicates that focus is on the ‘eenage’ text layer. The horizontal blue line is a guide I aligned with the top of that box. Since I have ‘snap to guides’ turned on, I can slide ‘eenage’ back and forth along the blue line without getting out of vertical alignment.

I started by adjusting the spacing between ‘T’ and ‘eenage.’ In the Layers/Channels/Paths window, I chained ‘T’ and ‘eenage’ and made sure the rest were unchained. That allowed me to move ‘Teenage’ as a unit while adjusting the spacing between ‘Teenage’ and ‘a.’

Plan B

I ended up changing the design substantially. Again.

CMYK Proofs

The last step in my workflow is RGB to CMYK conversion. GIMP will edit CMYK files, but you may not get the colors you expect.

This time the proofs looked reasonable, but I’m sure I’ll revise the cover again before it’s all over.

 

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8
March

Creating a DIY book cover with GIMP

Doing your own artwork

Although I signed with a great publisher for my e-book, I opted out of print, deciding to self-publish a paperback edition of my novel. Doing my interior and cover design would allow me artistic control, for better or worse, of the product.

Having more time than cash, I wanted to see how much I could accomplish without spending any money. That meant doing everything myself.

What’s the goal?

One of the first things that struck me, while browsing book covers online, was how many were unreadable when displayed as icons. Not surprising, really, since they were probably designed with the book in mind and not the icon.

Browsing book covers in stores, I came away with a different sense of vision. I suppose the artwork was the same as what was displayed in that little icon online, but the feeling it conveyed, at least to me, was entirely different.

But, realistically, was my book going to be on shelves in stores? Not likely. So, where would people see the cover? Online. And after they had purchased it. People weren’t likely to make their decision to buy based on the back cover.

So, my goal was to come up with a cover that looked great in person and as an icon. That meant keeping it simple.

Something that would have helped, had I known it up front: There are some colors you can get in that pretty little icon that won’t print so well on paper.

Cover concepts

Some of the best pointers on cover design were right here. I read as many posts as I could, trying to hold my impatience in check. I browsed through various sites for stock photos, looking for ideas.

The protagonist in my novel has a genetic disorder that alters facial shape. Although I could edit a photo to simulate the disorder, the fine print in the stock photo licensing pretty much prohibited portraying any of their models as my protagonist. So, stock photos were right out.

Large eyes relative to small nose and mouth. Anime might have worked. Some of it was amazing, but I didn’t draw and couldn’t afford to pay a high-end artist. Then I stumbled across flickr and found some kind people willing to grant me the right to use some of their photos to do my cover. In turn, I would acknowledge them in the front matter of my book.

Boy doll

Image by Youkosilvara

Tools

I had used Photoshop. I loved it, but didn’t own a recent version. And can’t afford it. So, I downloaded GIMP. It was free and it did almost everything I needed to build my cover.

The only drawback is that GIMP doesn’t do CMYK, which is exactly what my printer requires. Fortunately, Smoking Gun Graphics has a free RGB to CMYK converter here.

Getting started

I played around with GIMP and with different cover concepts for months before converting to CMYK. My recommendation is that you get a feel for the RGB-CMYK differences first.

You’ll find that working in JPEG isn’t the best idea. It’s possible to lose image quality every time you save the file. XCF is the native GIMP format I use. TIF is what the converter wants. PNG is great for using on the web.

I loaded the original JPEG file in GIMP and saved it as XCF and then as TIF.

Color manipulation

GIMP provides a number of useful tools for changing hue and saturation, including an automatic color enhancement capability.

If you duplicate the layer first, then you can mellow out the results. Layer | Duplicate Layer, Color | Auto | Color Enhance, Set the layer opacity (alpha) in the Layers, Channels, Paths window until the colors are right, Layer | Merge Down to recombine the two layers.

There’s no space here to cover everything I did. Nothing special. I rotated the image, cropped it, and changed out the eyes with another image that someone had kindly let me use.

Photo courtesy of Look Into My Eyes (Flickr)

I also resized my image to be the proper height for my paperback. Nine inches at 300 pixels per inch plus a 75 pixel margin. That’s 2775 pixels.

 I converted the image from XCF to TIF and converted the TIF to CMYK-TIF to see how the image would look in the product.

Wasn’t that easy?

Building a cover

Once I finished the interior formatting, I knew how many pages were in the book. My printer has an online application that will generate a cover template based on book size and number of pages. It requires an ISBN because it generates a bar code for you.

For GIMP, I use the PDF format of the template. I started GIMP and dropped the template into the empty window. A pop-up shows the file contents and allows you to set the resolution to 300 pixels per inch.

Templates vary from printer to printer, but they should look something like:

The only thing on the template that you’re allowed to move is the bar code. Nothing may be resized.

Placing items on the cover

I started by dropping a PNG copy of the photo into the window. In the Layers, Channels, Paths, etc window, I set the opacity to about 40 so I could see the red and blue lines on the template.

The red lines indicate where text is too close to either the trimmed edge or to the fold between the cover and the spine. This is a mechanical limitation and not an esthetic one. In practice, cover artists use a stricter border for text. So, I added a layer with a more realistic border. I also added a layer that frames the front cover trim size so I could see what the cover would look like by turning the layer on.

Adding Title Text

I tried a number of fonts and layouts for the title text and finally settled on mixing two fonts, the same two I had used on the book’s interior.

Although I liked the placement, there wasn’t enough contrast for the text to be readable when the cover was turned into a small icon. So, I added drop shadows to the text.

Drop shadows on text

GIMP does nice drop shadows, but it’s kind of particular about adding them to text. To avoid complications, I make sure to Select | None, select the move icon in the Toolbox (not the Text icon), select the text layer in the Layers, Channels, Paths, etc window, and then Filters | Light and Shadow | Drop Shadow to add the shadow layer. For my green text, I set the drop shadow color to black; for the black text I set it to white. The default opacity of drop shadow layers is 80. I set them to 60. With the background opacity set to 100, here’s the result:

Don’t be disappointed if it takes a while to get the look you want. I’ve built at least twenty different covers. Some were dreadful.

Spine text

Getting the spine text right takes a little time. Here’s a trick: GIMP has a measuring tool. If you measure the spine, you can properly size the text for it in horizontal mode and then rotate it once you’ve got the size right. The measurement icon is in the toolbox. The measurement results are displayed on the status bar at the bottom of the window.

Once the spine text has been sized and spaced properly, rotate the text layer using Layer | Transform | Rotate 90 counter-clockwise.

The bar code

I wasn’t sure what I wanted on my back cover, except for the bar code. I copied it from the template by selecting the template layer in the Layers window, duplicating the layer using Layer | Duplicate layer, and then cropping the duplicated layer down to just the bar code. Note that you can change the z-order by selecting a layer and clicking on the green arrows at the bottom of the Layers window.

I moved the bar code above the photo in the z-order and then selected the move icon in the Toolbox in order to drag the bar code to where I thought I wanted it.

Back cover

I finally decided to limit the back cover to three items: The publisher name and bar code, a blurb about the book, and a blurb about the author. I divided the back cover into areas, allocating space in the proportion necessary for the three items. To improve the contrast, I added gradients to darken the photo. The gradient tool is in the Toolbox. I created a new layer for each gradient, used the selection tool to select the area in which I wanted to do a gradient, and then used the gradient tool to draw the gradients.

The plan was to add photos and text to each of the three sections. To find out how wide the bar code was, I selected the bar code layer and did a Layer | Scale layer. It shows the width and height in pixels. I used that information when I scaled my other photos to the appropriate height and trimmed them to the same width as the bar code.

I added titles for each of the areas.

Finally, I added the text for the blurbs.

To see what the back cover would look like, I duplicated the front cover window layer, flipped it horizontally using Layer | Transform | Flip Horizontally, and positioned it to show the back cover. At that point I decided to turn off one of the black gradients to lighten the background a bit.

The blurb text is right up against the red lines of the template. It might be good to go back later and increase the margins. It’s one of the things I keep adjusting.

Proofing the cover

Before I could have a proof copy printed, I had to convert to CMYK one last time. So, I wrote out the entire cover in TIF format and converted it. Note how the green text color has changed.

Conclusion

If you have time and no money, GIMP is a great way to go. I’m not sure how much better someone with Photoshop could control the RGB to CMYK color mapping, but it might be worth the cost to pay a professional to do the color adjustments and conversion for you.

Assuming you can get your colors right, it’s possible to do a professional-looking cover yourself, using GIMP. The question is: Can you, the author, also be enough of an artist to design a cover that is as good as your book? I’m sure I’ll go through a few more iterations before I’m happy with mine.

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1
March

Formatting your book with OpenOffice – Part 2

In Part 1 I started with a book in the standard format we all send to agents and formatted it in preparation for print. This article continues with formatting the manuscript for a particular book size.

Choosing a book size

Since I’m self-publishing, it isn’t likely my paperback will be stocked in Barnes and Noble. Potential buyers will probably see an image of the front cover online. When they receive my book, I want them to be pleasantly surprised by the quality.

Most of the books I examined that were similar to mine were 5.25″ x 8″. I also found a few that were 6″ x 9″. My printer charges the same per page for both sizes. Should be a no-brainer, then. But typographers will tell you that the optimal number of characters per line is 66. So, with a larger format, you’re going to end up with a larger font and/or wider margins to get the same number of characters across the page.

Setting the font size and the margins

You can either set the paper size and margins to actual or you can leave the paper size at ‘letter’ and compensate by using larger margins. Find out what your printer wants before you set them.

Since I was using several different page styles, I needed to set my paper size in each of them. I started with the Default page style.

In Part 1, I had set the Page layout to Mirrored. I set the Paper format to User, six inches wide, and nine inches high. I set the margins to what I was told by my printer were his suggested minimums. Note that the margins in the non-mirrored page styles are worded differently.

Font and font size

Fonts vary a bit in character widths, so I didn’t want to try to set font size and my final margin sizes before selecting a font. After considering several, I settled on the old reliable Garamond. The font had to be changed in all of the paragraph styles and in the Drop Caps character style. I looked at some 6″x9″ paperback books and settled on an 11 point font size for the body text.

OpenOffice has a word count tool in the menu at Tools and Word Count. I selected a typical line.

Some typographers will tell you that a line should have between 45 and 75 characters. The ideal of 66 includes spaces. My lines were a little too long. That meant using a larger font size or increasing the margin(s). I chose to increase the margins a little.  Changing the inside margin to .9″ and the outside to .6″ reduced the number of characters in a line to a more acceptable number and allowed for the wider margins I had wanted.

Line spacing

Along with font size, the amount of white space and its distribution affects reading enjoyment. I tried quite a few different combinations and the one thing that seemed to most affect the price of the printed book was the line spacing. Clearly double spacing was more than necessary, but how much was enough?

For each size, I printed out a chapter and read it. As a sanity check, I compared my line spacing to books similar to mine. After playing with several fixed line spacings, I settled on .20″. Line spacing is set in the paragraph styles.

Chapter Titles and Drop Caps

Adjusting the size and positioning of the chapter titles and the size of the first letter in the chapter seemed arbitrary. I changed sizes and positions until I came up with something I liked on the printed page. At this point I expected to get close to a first cut at my design.

Hyphenation

Several sources I consulted indicated that the flow of white space on a page was a good indication of how professional a book design was. I suppose you could do all of your spacing by hand, but turning on hyphenation seemed like a reasonable place to start. Since hyphenation is under the Text Flow tab in the paragraph styles, it has to be enabled for each style where hyphenation is important.

Cleanup

That’s it for the prep work. The rest is cleaning up. White space and orphans. Before doing that, however, make sure you’re happy with your interior design. If you change font, font size, line spacing, etc, you’ll need to do your cleanup again.

White Space

Even with hyphenation, you can still have some lines or areas that stand out because the words are spread out more than the surrounding lines. One advantage of being the author, is you can sometimes find an alternate way to say something that looks better on the printed page.

Orphans

You don’t want chapters to end with a single line on a new page. Same with scenes. Scenes breaks shouldn’t be on the last line of a page or on the first. My own rule was that a scene break not appear on the last two or first two lines of a page.

There are a number of ways to shift text up or down the page. My rule was to always eliminate enough text to shift the scene break or chapter end up. I would start with paragraphs which ended with a single word on their last line, to see if I could cut a word. Sometimes I eliminated entire sentences or paragraphs. I agree that by this point in the process there shouldn’t be any fat to cut, but who of us can’t afford to tighten up our prose?

Proofing

In our exercise room is a ton of paper, stacks of marked up drafts and revisions of my novel. I try to do most of my editing and proofreading online, but there are things I notice on hard-copy that I miss on the screen. When I thought I was finished with my formatting and design, I printed out the entire manuscript again. I made sure to turn on the print driver feature that drew page borders. I printed the pages in duplex mode, even stapled them.

The final step is to output the file as PDF and have my printer send me a single copy of the book. I expect to find more things to change then.

 

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24
February

Formatting your book with OpenOffice – Part 1

Although I’ve got a great publisher for the e-book edition of Confessions of a Teenage Hermaphrodite, I decided to self-publish the paperback. Since I was already familiar with OpenOffice and unable to afford Adobe InDesign, I decided to invest some time to see if using OpenOffice was feasible.

The first step, always, is make a backup and put it somewhere you can’t mess it up.

Preliminary Cleanup

Editing always seems to inject typographic and formatting errors. So my first step was to insure that I didn’t have any tabs, double spaces, extra hard returns, or other debris in my file. What remained was the standard 12-point Times Roman, letter size, one inch margins, double-spaced document that we all use when we send a manuscript to an agent.

Paragraph Styles – Body Text

I use paragraph styles in my documents, but sometimes editing results in blocks of text that are ‘confused’ about their style. My first step, then was to re-assert a generic paragraph formatting everywhere.

I checked the ‘Text body’ paragraph style to make sure the paragraph indent was set to a reasonable initial value. You can bring up the Styles and Formatting by selecting it in the Format menu or by pressing F11. Don’t use the formatting in the toolbar.

The paragraph indent is under the Indents & Spacing tab.

I also changed the text spacing to 1.5 lines for the time being.

Since I use the ‘Text body’ paragraph style for my body text, I selected the entire document and applied the ‘Text body’ paragraph style by double-clicking on ‘Text body’ in the list of paragraph styles. Once again, don’t change the format using the toolbar. I hate this step because it removes all of the styling I did before sending the document off to agents.

Chapter Titles

I created a new paragraph style called ‘ChapterTitle’ for my chapter titles.

Since I didn’t have an existing style similar to what I wanted, I used the ‘Text body’ paragraph style as a parent. Be sure to unlink the new style from the parent so that changes to the parent don’t mess up the chapter titles.

To begin with, I dropped the chapter titles down 1.5 inches on the page. This is where the drop is adjusted. Don’t use carriage returns. I also set the spacing below the title.

At this point we’re just establishing control over the format, not trying make things look pretty. I set the font larger and changed the Typeface to differentiate the titles from the body text. Under the Alignment tab, I changed the alignment to center.

Once the new paragraph style was defined, I applied it to the chapter titles in the text. Select a chapter title and double-click on ‘ChapterTitle’ in the styles list to apply it. Don’t use the toolbar to change formats. Be sure the chapter title text is on its own line.

Scene Breaks

My scene breaks consisted of four asterisks separated by spaces, and centered. I created a paragraph style using ‘Text body’ as a parent, unlinked it, and set the alignment to center.

Rather than apply the new style to each scene break, I applied it to the first one and then copied it and pasted it over all of the others.

Character Styles – Drop Caps

Since I wanted to eventually do something with the first character of each chapter, I modified the Drop Caps character style.

After I changed the font size, I selected the first character of the first chapter and applied the Drop Caps character style to it. It’s tedious, but I repeated the same process for each chapter.

Page Styles

You’ve probably noticed that chapters always begin on the right side page. In order to accomplish this, I modified the Chapter Titles paragraph style. Under the Text Flow tab, I told OpenOffice to insert a Page break before the Chapter Title using the Right Page page style.

Then I modified the Right Page page style to make sure that a Right Page is followed by a Default style page. So, the first page of each chapter is a Right Page and all the following pages in the chapter are Default page style.

The first page  of a chapter is different from the rest, but the odd and even numbered Default style pages will also be different from each other. I changed the Default page style to support this. Under the Page tab, I changed the page layout to Mirrored. Under the Header tab, I enabled headers and unchecked the ‘Same content left/right’ selection.

The footers are set up the same way.

If I wanted a header or a footer on the first page of each chapter, I’d need to enable the header/footer in the ‘Right Page’ page style.

Setting Page One

My document has several pages of front matter that I haven’t formatted yet. Since I want Chapter One to start on page one, regardless of what’s in front of it, I needed to set the page number. To do this, I placed the cursor just before the chapter title. For me, that’s at the end of the last line on the book’s second title page. I selected the Insert and Manual Break menu item.

Since the Chapter Title paragraph style was already inserting a page break, I immediately deleted the extra one by pressing the forward delete key (not the backspace). So now, the first page of Chapter One is one.

Headers and Footers

Once the pages were numbered properly, I inserted my header and footer text. Initially, I wanted to go with author name at the top outside of the left-hand page, the book title at the top outside of the right-hand page, and page number on the outside of each page (except the first page of each chapter).

With the cursor in the footer of one of the pages, I inserted a page number field.

The page number turned out to be even, so left-justified would put it at the outside of the page.

I scrolled up to the top of page 84 and typed in the author name. Even page, so it would be on the outside.

On the next page, I inserted the page number field into the footer and right justified it. In the header, I inserted the title and right justified it.

Front Matter

Since some of the front matter pages should be on the right when you open the book, I created a FrontMatterRight page style. I could have used the ‘Right Page’ page style, but I didn’t want headers or footers in my front matter. I created a FrontMatterDefault page style to use with it. I also created a FrontMatterSection paragraph style similar to the ChapterTitle paragraph style. I did a paragraph style for the copyright page. The only time I used the toolbar for formatting was the title page.

 Page Size and Margins

I haven’t done much artistic design yet, but the document is set up to easily control the visual elements in a consistent manner. In Part 2, I’ll start formatting the document for a particular book size.

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8
February

Guest: Susannah Cornwall

 

My name is Susannah Cornwall, and I’m currently a postdoctoral research fellow at the Lincoln Theological Institute, University of Manchester in the UK. I’m conducting a research project called Intersex, Identity and Disability: Issues for Public Policy, Healthcare and the Church, which will run until 2014. Thanks to Lianne for giving me the opportunity to write a guest post about the project here on her blog!

During the time I was researching my PhD at the University of Exeter, on the theological and ethical implications of intersex, I came across stories from people who had been treated very badly by their Christian communities.  I became saddened as I learned about the experiences of a Southern Baptist pastor who had lost his pastorate – and many of his friends – because fellow-pastors had been so suspicious about his intersex identity and ministry to other intersex people. I became, in turn, dismayed, furious and incredulous as I heard of the experiences of Sally Gross, from South Africa, formerly a Roman Catholic priest, whose priestly vows were annulled and who was no longer allowed to receive communion when she transitioned from living as a man to living as a woman (despite having no surgery to alter her intersex anatomy). Sally Gross was told by Christians that, not being fully male or female, she was also not fully human and that her baptism was therefore only as valid as the baptism of a dog, cat, or tin of tuna would have been.

Although I had talked to intersex people about intersex and their Christian identity during the period of my PhD research, these conversations were “off the record” and I didn’t conduct formal interviews.  However, I became more and more persuaded that intersex is not a minor or side issue for Christian theology, but one which has implications for some central Christian beliefs about the natures of God and humanity. It also seemed to me more and more odd that no published work on intersex and faith identity—with a specific focus on Christianity as my area of special interest and expertise—seemed to exist. The British denominations’ documents on personhood, sex, gender and sexuality make little to no mention of intersex, and I started to wonder whether this would ever change if church policy makers were not made more aware of the existence of intersex and of the experiences of intersex people.

In my current project, I’m therefore keen to find out whether the negative responses to individuals such as Sally Gross from other Christians are an unfortunate anomaly, or whether it’s commonplace for intersex Christians to feel excluded or shut out in this way by communities of faith. Do intersex Christians tend to find it difficult, for example, to belong to churches which teach strong and unwavering norms of sex and gender? Are there Christians in Britain who’ve shared details of their intersex conditions with Christian friends or their church communities and been rejected or ostracized as a result? Or do intersex people, in fact, tend to find that religious communities are places of support and welcome rather than of exclusion? In what ways, if any, do intersex people feel that church congregations, and the official teachings of the Christian denominations, might do more to celebrate and endorse the full personhood of intersex people?

This research has finally become possible through my appointment as postdoctoral research fellowship with the Lincoln Theological Institute in the Department of Religions and Theology at the University of Manchester. As principal investigator of my own three-year project, I’m undertaking research under the broad title Intersex, Identity and Disability: Issues for Public Policy, Healthcare and the Church. As well as giving space for intersex Christians in Britain to share their own experiences of what it means to navigate intersex identity and Christian faith identity, I hope the project will also come to inform church policy on sex and gender. I’m currently also learning more about how best healthcare chaplains and those working in pastoral care can minister to intersex people and parents of children born with intersex conditions.

I’m still recruiting research participants, so if you or anyone you knows lives in Britain and identifies as intersex and Christian (whether or not you currently attend a church), please do get in touch. More information and regular updates about the project can be found here.

Susannah Cornwall’s book, Sex and Uncertainty in the Body of Christ: Intersex Conditions and Christian Theology, was published by Equinox in 2010 and is available to buy online at Amazon or Equinox.

 

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28
January

Leah Bobet Interview

Leah Bobet

Leah Bobet, Author of ABOVE

This is the first in what I hope will be a series of interviews with authors who have written about intersex characters in their novels. Today I’m interviewing Leah Bobet about her book, ABOVE.

Thank you so much for being here, Leah.

Thanks for having me!

How long have you been writing?

I’ve been writing for publication for ten years — since I was 19.  There’s a whole trail of short fiction out there, in both print and online magazines going back to 2002, that’s pretty much the story of me figuring out what I wanted to say and how I could best say it.

What do you like the most and least about writing?

The most?  The way it feels when you’re about half an hour into writing a scene when it’s working, really working, and your body almost ceases to exist.  There’s nothing in the world but you and the words, and this little tingle in your fingers to connect them.

The least?  This may sound precious, but…not writing.  My process is fairly finicky and I will get months-long dead spots, where I just don’t have anything to say and can’t put pen to paper (or hands to keyboard, as the case may be).  The only real solution’s to wait.  I, as a general rule, hate waiting.

What genre do you write?

Several, actually — and then some things that live at the intersections of a few genres.  ABOVE’s been described as an urban fantasy, a dystopian, a paranormal; my own description’s usually that it’s a literary novel if you squint one way and a fantasy novel if you squint the other way. I’ve also recently published short fiction that was the-bastard-child-of-CanLit-and-Stephen-King-horror-with-bonus!-political-commentary, and serious-relationship-fiction-but-oh-hey-there’s-witches, and ridiculous-gonzo-religious-humour-with-puns.

So to give a perfectly complicated answer to a perfectly simple question: genre’s one of the places I tend to play. There’s usually elements of two or more of them in anything I write.

Tell me about ABOVE. What’s your hook? Where can I find a copy?

ABOVE is about Matthew, who’s loved Ariel from the moment he found her in the tunnels, her bee’s wings falling away. They live in Safe, an underground refuge for those fleeing the city Above—like Whisper, who speaks to ghosts, and Jack Flash, who can shoot lightning from his fingers. 

But one terrifying night, an old enemy invades Safe with an army of shadows, and only Matthew, Ariel, and a few friends escape Above. As Matthew unravels the mystery of Safe’s history and the shadows’ attack, he realizes he must find a way to remake his home—not just for himself, but for Ariel, who needs him more than ever before.

The book comes out March 1st in Canada, April 1st in the US, and it’ll be available pretty much everywhere you find your books: online, in chain bookstores, and in independents.

One of the main characters in ABOVE is intersex. Would you tell us a bit about the character, the condition, and the research you did?

It’s about half of a major plot point, so I’d rather not reveal too much about the character hirself.

A lot of the foundational research came from discussions with a friend who’s a paediatrician, who deals with gender assignment choices for intersex children in a very real, hands-on, everyday way.  Talking to her about it was what first highlighted the topic for me, and general online reading covered most of what I needed for what is essentially a character background, filtered through the perspective of a narrator who doesn’t know much about the condition himself.

Does the character’s condition play a pivotal role in their character arc?

It’s both entirely central to why events play out as they do, and entirely peripheral: the character in question’s motives and emotional reflexes were entirely made by how people — first at home, and then in the world, and then in Safe where sie found hirself — reacted to hir being intersex.  It’s the entire reason sie reacts in certain ways to other people’s choices, and those reactions drive the plot.

But in another sense, it’s a character background like any other; the kinds of fears and hopes that spring out of it could spring out of other places (and do, in some of the other characters in Safe!), and the ultimate choices sie makes, as well as the consequences for them, have to do with a whole other condition that character has, and a whole other relationship dynamic.

What will the reader conclude learn about intersex from your character?

While that’s up to the reader entirely, I doubt they’ll learn much in depth specifically about intersex.  What I’m hoping they’ll learn, though?  That it’s just a thing, like many other things, and that treating people according to their parts or conditions or diagnoses in general is less good than treating them as people.  Which sounds like it should be a simple thing to learn, but we do tend to have trouble with it.

What are you working on?

An odd little book about a sixteen-year-old girl on a post-apocalyptic farm, whose brother-in-law hasn’t come back from the war, the mysterious veteran they hire on to help run the land through the winter, and all the trouble that brings down on their heads.

What do you do for fun and relaxation when not writing?

A terrible lot of things!  I am sort of a halfway house for hobbies: I knit, watch silent movies, go on adventures with my friends, run scavenger hunts, bellydance, bake bread, and I’m ridiculously into urban agriculture, indie music, and Toronto municipal politics.  A friend’s talked me into picking my guitar back up too, so…

Which authors do you like to read?

Oh, I’m a total omnivore.  I will read nearly anything, and after working in a bookstore for four years (where reading new authors was my job!) I have a habit of aggressively hunting down first novels and authors I’ve never read before.

I will always read a new Nalo Hopkinson novel, or a new David Mitchell, or a new China Mieville.  There are a bunch of local-to-me authors I will always read: Peter Watts, Caitlin Sweet, David Nickle, Zoe Whittall, Catherine Bush, and most of what Coach House Books puts out.  But the rest is variable: I’m always more interested in the author I haven’t discovered yet.

Do you have any tips for aspiring authors?

I heard a wonderful piece of writing advice the other day, from author Charles Coleman Finlay, which seems to sum up all the other writing advice in one sentence: “Find your own way forward with joy and discipline.”

Deep down, everyone has a sense of what might work for them and what might not.  Learning to write is less a driving test than an exploration.  Explore, find your own process with diligence, and enjoy it. It’s no good if you’re not having some fun.

Is there anything else you’d like us to know about you?

Just that I hope you like the book!

Thanks!

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27
January

Amy – Gonadal Dysgenesis

Some of my friends, who also happen to have intersex conditions, have agreed to short interviews. Today, we welcome Amy, who has Gonadal Dysgenesis.

Thank you so much for being here, Amy. Would you tell us a little about yourself?

Hi, my name is Amy! I am the second oldest of nine children, 6 younger sisters and 2 brothers. I have struggled with addictions over the last 20 years as I have sought to learn who I am. I was sober 9.5 years until I relapsed and now am sober this round 5 years. I am 44 years old and I don’t want to lose any more time trying to “find myself”. I am now divorced. I began dating women and have been in a two-year relationship. I work as a training coordinator for persons with developmental disabilities and mental illness. I do not discuss my condition with many people.

How and when were you told your diagnosis?

I was told for many years before my doctor visit that if I had not had a period by the time I was 17 that my mom was going to take me to see why. I waited for the magical age, the period never came, and I was swooped off to a doctor in Richmond Va. where I lived. All I remember from that day was a blur as we sat in the doctor’s office and I received my diagnosis which I didn’t understand. All I remember hearing is you won’t have children and had you been of normal height you would only have been 5’9. They gave me a diagnosis of Turners Syndrome and stated they didn’t know much about my diagnosis and while I really didn’t have all the symptoms of Turners, they gave me the diagnosis as they didn’t know what else to call it. I had one symptom of Turners, no ovaries. I had been born without ovaries. I was Catholic; my world felt crushed. My value of a woman was wrapped up in having children.

Can you explain a little about your condition?

My real diagnosis is XX Gonadal Dysgenesis. The best I understand is that a part of the arm of one of the X chromosomes broke off. This was the part that governed height and the development of Ovaries. While I would have been tall due to a father that is 6’4, I am now taller just because. At 17, I was tall as a rail. I was flat chested. I had not developed pubic hair or hair under my arms. It appeared I was stunted. I was growing taller and taller. They put me on Estrogen and Progesterone to induce a period as I do have a uterus. They threatened that I would not stop growing if I didn’t take my estrogen. HRT helped me develop breasts and hair yet I still had no hips, a flat butt and now a loaded chest. I looked in the mirror one day and didn’t recognize myself.

What do you like the most and the least about having a difference of sexual development?

I like the most that I do not have a period as many woman do. I do not have to suffer through these ill effects. The least not going through puberty as other people did. I felt left out and when I heard stories I regretted that I didn’t get to experience things other kids did. I spent time wondering what was wrong with me and in high school I felt so different that I volunteered in the snack stand at school so I didn’t have to sit with others I knew and worried about taking someone else’s chair. I couldn’t relate to any normal teenage angst.

How has it affected your relationships?

I didn’t date in high school, and I married the first man who showed an interest, especially marriage material when he said he didn’t want kids and he said I was all woman. I was with him for 10 years and I found out he was cheating on me the whole time. I wondered what was real and what was wrong with me as a woman that he would want to sleep with others. I felt very less then.

Has it affected your religious views?

I was brought up Catholic. I felt for sure I was being punished for something bad.

What’s the one thing you’d most like people to know about you?

That even though I am 6’1″, I’m harmless, cannot fight and am all mouth. I wish people wouldn’t make assumptions. Get to know me then you can voice an opinion. Stop calling me a boy all the time or saying yes sir. I have breasts that are DD and yet people continually say sir, yes sir, etc. I don’t think I look like a boy.

 

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24
January

Erin – Complete Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome

Some of my friends, who also happen to have intersex conditions, have agreed to short interviews. Today, we welcome Erin, who has Complete Androgen Insensitivity Syndrome.

Thank you so much for being here, Erin. Would you tell us a little about yourself?

I am 29 years old and I am currently finishing up a degree in public health.

How and when were you told your diagnosis?

I was sixteen and had not had my period. I went to a series of doctors and was called in to meet with my pediatrician who broke the news to my parents and myself. I knew something was wrong when I walked into the room and my doctor started to cry before I even sat down. I asked her if I was going to die and she said “oh no”, then asked her if I was going to be able to have a child and she started crying again. I walked out and drove myself back to school. I was 20 before I fully understood what I had (CAIS). I was 27 before I began to accept it.

Can you explain a little about your condition?

I have CAIS. I developed externally like any other girl. I have curves and breasts and feminine features and I have female genitalia that looks like any other woman’s. However internally I had no cervix, uterus or ovaries, instead I had internal testes. Some of the benefits in my personal case are that I have very little body hair. I don’t even need to shave under my arms. My armpits are totally hairless and I don’t really have body odor and I have never had pimples or broken out. I do know that two of my maternal grandmothers sisters were unable to have children. The eldest sadly committed suicide before I was born and as for the other sister we decided it was best not to open up this can of worms to an unsuspecting eighty-year-old woman.

What do you like the most and the least about having a difference of sexual development (DSD)?

I think it has made me more compassionate to anyone who does not fit a societal mold. I obviously dislike not having the option to have a biological child. I also have a really hard time with all of the misinformation and ignorance that surrounds Disorders of Sexual Development, my eyes have been opened to what types of stereotypes I might be buying into. I have learned to always have my eyes wide open and always be mindful of people’s feelings.

How has it affected your relationships?

The short answer is I have never disclosed to anyone. The only people that know are my parents and my sister. However, I know that my sister has told her boyfriends over the years. The long answer would need to be discussed with a glass of wine and I am all out.

Has it affected your religious views?

Wow. This is a very interesting question that I feel is perhaps even more personal than talking about my physical development. I grew up going to church and I attended Catholic school and my mother is very active in the church. I am an atheist and I tend to think I would be regardless of having CAIS. I can see how some people might have issues after getting their diagnosis. I know my mom had a crisis of faith after I was diagnosed but I think in the end she feels she has become stronger in her faith.

What’s the one thing you’d most like people to know about you?

I am a woman that just faces a different set of challenges than the average person.

Thanks, Erin.

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23
January

MuseItUp Publishing contract!

Cover concept for the paperback

Two days before Christmas I found an e-mail in my stocking, offering me a contract with MuseItUp Publishing for my debut novel, Confessions of a Teenage Hermaphrodite. After I executed a perfect pirouette and did my best Happy Feet impression, the elven princess suggested I actually think rationally about whether or not to accept their offer.

My husband, being an accountant, and the most stable member of the family, suggested we talk it over, sleep on it, and most importantly, pray about it. We did. At two in the morning, on December 31st, I returned the signed contract.

The e-book release of Confessions of a Teenage Hermaphrodite is scheduled for September of this year.

I am so excited to be working with MuseItUp, their editors, and their other authors.

FaieMiss Press will be publishing the paperback.

Sample chapters may be found here.

My thanks to YoukosilvaraLook Into My Eyes, and iStockPhoto for the images from which the cover concept was built.

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